Thursday 18 July 2024

Event:

Meeting with Stephen

Here and Now:

I had a dream last night that I was with another man who loves me but my thoughts were with Stephen and how I used to imagine that I would be with him and in the dream, I was so sad.
I woke up early at 4:23AM and started to pray about everything in my heart but fell asleep at around 5 until 6AM and I felt my body was so tired as it craved for more sleep even though I had enough already not because I lacked rest but because I am depressed. I am sad, without anything to hope for as I had already decided to let go of Stephen and let my desires die. I will hope in GOD who will bring me another husband, a better one. And so my heart is not with my family anymore, if I marry someone who lives not in Cebu I have to go and I will go because all that I gain in the family is heartbreak and distress. I told the LORD this morning, I am tired LORD, I don't want to believe anymore that Stephen is the one but not believing in YOUR Promises is also making me depressed. What do YOU want me to do?

SOAP

Scriptures

Numbers 23

19 God is not man, that he should lie,    or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it?    Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it?20 Behold, I received a command to bless:    he has blessed, and I cannot revoke it. 21 He has not beheld misfortune in Jacob,    nor has he seen trouble in Israel. The Lord their God is with them,    and the shout of a king is among them. 22 God brings them out of Egypt    and is for them like the horns of the wild ox.

Habakkuk 2

The Righteous Shall Live by His Faith

2 And the Lord answered me:

“Write the vision;    make it plain on tablets,    so he may run who reads it.3 For still the vision awaits its appointed time;    it hastens to the end—it will not lie.If it seems slow, wait for it;    it will surely come; it will not delay.

4 “Behold, his soul is puffed up; it is not upright within him,    but the righteous shall live by his faith.[a]
Habakkuk 3

Habakkuk Rejoices in the Lord

17 Though the fig tree should not blossom,    nor fruit be on the vines,the produce of the olive fail    and the fields yield no food,the flock be cut off from the fold    and there be no herd in the stalls,18 yet I will rejoice in the Lord;    I will take joy in the God of my salvation.19 God, the Lord, is my strength;    he makes my feet like the deer's;    he makes me tread on my high places.

To the choirmaster: with stringed[g] instruments.

Philippians 3

English Standard Version

Righteousness Through Faith in Christ

1 Finally, my brothers,[a] rejoice in the Lord. To write the same things to you is no trouble to me and is safe for you.

Matthew 255 As the bridegroom was delayed, they all became drowsy and slept. 6 But at midnight there was a cry, ‘Here is the bridegroom! Come out to meet him.’ 7 Then all those virgins rose and trimmed their lamps.13 Watch therefore, for you know neither the day nor the hour.

ObservationGOD has told me something impossible, GOD wants me to keep believing the impossible. GOD wants me to keep praying and waiting on HIM. GOD wants me to rejoice even though I do not see anything. If I think about it, I am like a madman if I continue to obey HIS WORD but even if I were to be like a madman, my faith exceed or supersedes whatever I feel because my feelings are of the flesh but my faith is of the Spirit. And GOD wants me to walk in the Spirit, even if I have to be a madman, I command my soul to walk in the Spirit.

ApplicationGOD does not lie therefore I ought to Keep trusting GOD.Write GOD's VISION in your tablet and wait for it to happen.VISION: I am married to my husband who loves me deeply with two children and his mother living with us.Live by my faith so that I am righteous before GODEven if I do not see anything I will rejoice in the LORD!Rejoice in the LORD even if I do not feel like rejoicing, command your heart to rejoice because GOD is going to do exceedingly more than what I asked or even imagined.

PrayersDear AVI,MY Precious and Wonderful Father, YOU are HOLY, Faithful and True and I am YOUR beloved daughter who is tired and weary from waiting and hoping because nothing is happening. But I pray O GOD that YOU help me to keep trusting YOU because my faith is very weak and I am very weak and heavy laden, I want to rest in YOU. GOD YOU are My Shepherd I want to keep believing and seeing that YOU are always on the lookout for me, thinking of me, supplying my every need and preparing me to be the best wife to my husband. Thank YOU ABBA for showing me that people like Syndey Gaisano exists and I don't have to be afraid of not being able to love again because I realized I can fall in love with just anybody who kind looks like Sydney or Stephen. They are many of them in this world but some can be the best because they already know YOU and love YOU. GOD help me to keep living by faith, help me to keep waiting on YOU O GOD, to keep hoping in YOU, YOU will do more than what I have asked or imagined! YOU will do it O GOD, thank YOU for the vision. Thank YOU for that good and faithful, humble, meek, gentle and loving husband who loves me deeply.
Ba HaShem YESHUA HaMashiach, Amen!