Wednesday 24 July 2024

Event:

1st day Conference at Amari Hotel, Bangkok

Here and Now

I am so disturbed with many things!!! My heart also deceives me as much as Mom's heart deceives her... I wasn't able to do my devotions well because Stephen sent me a message on viber and I was caught up with how to answer him because I still love him! I'm so pathetic! But the Foundation we are starting is disturbing me more because of the calculated troubles I see in the future.

SOAP

Scriptures

Jeremiah 22:13-23

English Standard Version

13 “Woe to him who builds his house by unrighteousness,    and his upper rooms by injustice, who makes his neighbor serve him for nothing    and does not give him his wages, 14 who says, ‘I will build myself a great house    with spacious upper rooms, ’who cuts out windows for it,    paneling it with cedar    and painting it with vermilion. 15 Do you think you are a king    because you compete in cedar? Did not your father eat and drink    and do justice and righteousness?    Then it was well with him. 16 He judged the cause of the poor and needy;    then it was well. Is not this to know me?    declares the Lord. 17 But you have eyes and heart    only for your dishonest gain, for shedding innocent blood,    and for practicing oppression and violence.”

Song of Songs 2:8-17

English Standard Version

The Bride Adores Her Beloved

8 The voice of my beloved!    Behold, he comes,leaping over the mountains,    bounding over the hills.9 My beloved is like a gazelle    or a young stag.Behold, there he stands    behind our wall,gazing through the windows,    looking through the lattice.10 My beloved speaks and says to me:“Arise, my love, my beautiful one,    and come away,11 for behold, the winter is past;    the rain is over and gone.12 The flowers appear on the earth,    the time of singing[a] has come,and the voice of the turtledove    is heard in our land.13 The fig tree ripens its figs,    and the vines are in blossom;    they give forth fragrance.Arise, my love, my beautiful one,    and come away.14 O my dove, in the clefts of the rock,    in the crannies of the cliff,let me see your face,    let me hear your voice,for your voice is sweet,    and your face is lovely.15 Catch the foxes[b] for us,    the little foxesthat spoil the vineyards,    for our vineyards are in blossom.”

16 My beloved is mine, and I am his;    he grazes[c] among the lilies.17 Until the day breathes    and the shadows flee,turn, my beloved, be like a gazelle    or a young stag on cleft mountains.[d]

ObservationThe scripture in Jeremiah reflects exactly what I feel my mother's state of heart is right now. She wants to increase her kingdom by building more but it's in the facade of an Agricultural Farm Foundation! Now I am her daughter and I will also suffer the consequences of her wrong actions.

ApplicationWhat should I do??? Stop this! How? Pray and do something! coz I have not slept well at night I have been troubled by all this...
Prayers

Dear Avi,

Have mercy on me O GOD and save us from future unnecessary troubles!