Year 5984

Event: Letty's birthday and Dinner at David & Kim's home with Shobe  Here and Now: Slept 10 hours!!! Trying to get back the sleep I didn't get the other night, but I was so exhausted, from overthinking and crying and trying to let go and surrender my feelings for Stephen. I have to move on, may the LORD be merciful to me and let me move past this just as I have moved past my other exes. It's just silly because we only have a business relationship, yet I must have taken it different because of my desire. Ah well, poor me... but this is not GOD's will for me to suffer self pity. I am still recovering from my pain, it's good, this pain is good because I want this pain to put an end to my sillyness. Even though GOD says it's a healthy attraction, it's no longer healthy when I am crying because of the one time he raised his voice and the time at night he replied to my text. I felt secure that he was always there for me. And here I am still talking about i...

Event: Bonding with Tita Ge Here and Now: Didn't sleep well last night, kept praying for Stephen because my heart was hurting so bad... How do I let go of him??? I need to let go, I want to surrender but my heart is so stubborn. It has harmed me more than I had allowed it. I kept praying in tongues as I kept waking up at night SOAP Scriptures Acts 2 English Standard Version The Coming of the Holy Spirit 1  When the day of Pentecost arrived, they were all together in one place. 2  And suddenly there came from heaven a sound like a mighty rushing wind, and it filled the entire house where they were sitting. 3  And divided tongues as of fire appeared to them and rested[ a ] on each one of them. 4  And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance. Observation The day of Pentecost is the day JESUS had promised that the HOLY SPIRIT will come upon HIS disciples and until today GOD is waiting and searching fo...

Event: No special event but work work work Need to Decide with Mom about the Organization she wants to put up. Here and Now: Slept so long 8 hours last night, and I usually feel bad when I sleep too long even though 8 hours is what we ought to have as humans so they say but I don't agree with this because I felt more alive during the times I only slept 4-5hours a day during my watchman days. SOAP Scriptures Psalm 109 English Standard Version Help Me, O Lord My God To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David. 1  Be not silent, O God of my praise! 2  For wicked and deceitful mouths are opened against me,    speaking against me with lying tongues. 3  They encircle me with words of hate,    and attack me without cause. 4  In return for my love they accuse me,    but I give myself to prayer.[ a ] 5  So they reward me evil for good,    and hatred for my love. 6  Appoint a wicked man against ...

Event: Back to Work Day Here and Now: I woke up later than usual around 6plus and it's a work day because I felt so tired my body needed to rest from the trip we had from Thailand and I'm so glad to be back home but I was so blessed to be there in the Conference at Thailand because GOD used HIS servant to speak HIS word to me.  SOAP Scriptures Hebrews 5 14  But solid food is for the mature, for those who have their powers of discernment trained by constant practice to distinguish good from evil. Hebrews 6:1-20 English Standard Version 1  Therefore let us leave the elementary doctrine of Christ and go on to maturity, not laying again a foundation of repentance from dead works and of faith toward God, 2  and of instruction about washings,[ a ] the laying on of hands, the resurrection of the dead, and eternal judgment. 3  And this we will do if God permits. 4  For it is impossible, in the case of those who have once been enlightened, who have tasted the heave...