Wednesday 31 July 2024

Event:

Bonding with Tita Ge

Here and Now:
Didn't sleep well last night, kept praying for Stephen because my heart was hurting so bad... How do I let go of him??? I need to let go, I want to surrender but my heart is so stubborn. It has harmed me more than I had allowed it. I kept praying in tongues as I kept waking up at night

SOAP

Scriptures

Acts 2

English Standard Version

The Coming of the Holy Spirit

1 When the day of Pentecost arrived, they were all together in one place. 2 And suddenly there came from heaven a sound like a mighty rushing wind, and it filled the entire house where they were sitting. 3 And divided tongues as of fire appeared to them and rested[a] on each one of them. 4 And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance.

Observation

The day of Pentecost is the day JESUS had promised that the HOLY SPIRIT will come upon HIS disciples and until today GOD is waiting and searching for people to whom HE can pour out Himself just as HE poured HIMSELF into HIS disciples. 

Application

I will rely on GOD's Spirit that has been poured out upon me in my daily life. I will seek HIM and depend on HIM for everything. I will trust that HE loves me and HE has the best in store for me. I will keep looking to HIM for salvation. I will take my heart and let GOD be the center of it because HE deserves my best and all of me. HIS Spirit will give me uterance, HIS Spirit within me grieves and so my pain comes from being HIS disciple, and I pray that HE will bring relief to all my pain. 

Prayers

Dear AVI,

O Gracious and Loving Heavenly FATHER, YOU are GREAT and Glorious O GOD and there is no One like YOU. I pray for YOUR grace O GOD, to always be upon me and my family and everyone working for us, I pray for YOUR Spirit to always work within me and reveal things to me and to lead me to what YOU always want me to do. LORD, I am deeply in pain when Stephen doesn't respond to me, I feel rejected and unloved. This is such a serious issue that I have already made him an idol in my heart and today I am asking YOU to forgive me of this sin and heal me from all my pain and set me free from looking to him because he is not YOU, he cannot make me happy even if he loves me. I'm so thankful that he is our lawyer and I pray that YOU will protect our business relationship and I pray that YOU will remove these feelings in my heart for a man who is not meant to be mine. Preserve me and Guard my heart once again, let it be YOURS alone O GOD. LORD whatever YOU said to me in September 20, 2023, I still want it to be done, but if YOU have changed YOUR mind, I will follow YOU and walk with YOU. Thank YOU LORD, that YOU are making me strong today. Thank YOU that YOU are healing me and all the pain I have inside. LORD, help me to put my hope and trust in YOU again. Let it be so O GOD that YOU will heal me and release me from the pain of love. Just as YOU released me from Jeward in the past, I know YOU can release me from Stephen today. Release me O GOD I pray for release. I pray that YOU will make me love only YOU. Thank YOU for the husband whom YOU have prepared for me, who loves YOU and follows YOU and we are one in Spirit. Thank YOU that I will meet with Tita Ge today, thank YOU for her love and presence. I thank YOU that YOU have made a way to stop the foundation that the enemy is trying to build becasue this foundation is not built with pure intentions therefore this does not come from YOU. I thank YOU that YOU are in control as long as I am relying on YOU and letting YOU lead me even in the midst of pain. I thank YOU for YOUR grace O GOD give me joy even in the midst of pain. Help me KING JESUS I need YOU YOU deserve all of me. YOU deserve all the glory so help me GOD finish strong because YOU are coming. I want to rid myself of any desire, I just want to see YOU and meet with YOU already.

In the Name of JESUS Amen!