Sunday 4 August 2024

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Sunday Worship

Here and Now

It is so unusual that I keep sleeping so early waking up late at 6am because I do not need a lot of sleep but lately my sleeping habits have changed and I feel that I am suffering depression because of it. But I am trying to understand my body this time, I only eat 2x a day, I exercise once a week but it's very tiring and then I am going through emotional turmoil with my mother who wants to start something as a family that I believe that we should not start yet because we are not worthy, able, capable, and because of wrong intentions and motives of these people who wanted to start this in the first place. And I am trying to put a stop to it but I am alone and I am also dealing with my feelings for Stephen but now I am learning to let go... 

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Jeremiah 11

Plots against Jeremiah

18 Moreover, the Lord made it known to me and I knew it;Then You showed me their deeds.19 But I was like a gentle lamb led to the slaughter;And I did not know that they had devised plots against me, saying,“Let’s destroy the tree with its [k]fruit,And let’s cut him off from the land of the living,So that his name will no longer be remembered.”20 But, Lord of armies, who judges righteously,Who puts the [l]feelings and the heart to the test,Let me see Your vengeance on them,For to You I have [m]committed my cause.

21 Therefore this is what the Lord says concerning the people of Anathoth, who are seeking your life, saying: “Do not prophesy in the name of the Lord, so that you do not die by our hand”; 22 therefore, this is what the Lord of armies says: “Behold, I am going to punish them! The young men will die by the sword, their sons and daughters will die by famine; 23 and a remnant will not be left to them, because I will bring disaster on the people of Anathoth—the year of their punishment.”

Psalms 1

English Standard Version

Book One

The Way of the Righteous and the Wicked

1 Blessed is the man[a]    who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners,    nor sits in the seat of scoffers; 2 but his delight is in the law[b] of the Lord,    and on his law he meditates day and night.

3 He is like a tree    planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season,    and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers.

Hebrews 12:3-29

English Standard Version

Do Not Grow Weary

3 Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. 4 In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And have you forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons?

“My son, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord,    nor be weary when reproved by him. 6 For the Lord disciplines the one he loves,    and chastises every son whom he receives.”

7 It is for discipline that you have to endure. God is treating you as sons. For what son is there whom his father does not discipline?

ObservationI feel like Jeremiah in the midst of my family ruled by my mother who wants to do things that I do not have peace with. Fighting against the majority because she alone is a ruling vote like the head of a family as if she has the final say. But my prayers and heart are like Jeremiah's 20 But, Lord of armies, who judges righteously,Who puts the [l]feelings and the heart to the test,Let me see Your vengeance on them,For to You I have [m]committed my cause. I am tired of fighting against flesh and blood, there's no use arguing with the already deceived. I have to fight this in the Spirit and commit my cause to GOD. I am contending for my family and I pray that GOD will hear my prayers even if I am alone.

ApplicationI will NOT walk in the counsel of the wicked as my mother is doing walking in the counsel of false prophets because they want to receive funding from other people's money and then just mismanage it. But I will continue to delight in the law of the LORD, I will continue to meditate on HIS word, HIS love, HIS goodness, HIS presence in my life. I will not grow weary or lose heart because the LORD is with me and HE will put all my enemies under my feet! I will rise and be all that the LORD wants me to be continually doing HIS works of saving my family from further disaster.

PrayersDear AVI,Great and Awesome, Almighty Heavenly FATHER, KING of the Universe who rules every little thing on earth!!! O GOD Almighty, be the ruler of my father and mother, rule over them and stir their hearts to doing what is right to obey YOU and follow YOU, but even if they will not, let me remain faithful to YOU My GOD, let me live in YOUR Truth, let me always have a pure heart and see YOU as YOU are, O GOD, do not let me be deceived by any enemies anymore and I pray that YOU will also refine and purify my desires so that it will never be a snare to me anymore. Let YOUR love fill me and complete me that I do not lack because YOU are my Shepherd my GOD my KING. Revive my heart, my body, my mind, let it be the very best for YOU because YOU O GOD deserve all of me. I continue to pray for Stephen and Benita to respond to YOUR call, YOUR love, YOUR Truth, I pray that YOU will encounter them, encounter them so that they surrender their lives and live for YOU. I pray for my husband whoever he is that YOU will let him follow YOU wholeheartedly and that YOU will lead him to me or lead me to him, whatever is YOUR Will O GOD I know that YOU have somebody prepared for me who will not only love me but we will love YOU together and live for YOU. For YOU O GOD Deserve all our praise, worship, adoration, devotion and love.In the Name of YESHUA Amen!