Shabbat 10 August 5984

Event:
Shabbat Rest - going to have hair laser removal with Shobe
Practice in the afternoon

Here and now:
I didn't enjoy a good sleep last night, I was very sad that I am completely rejected by the One I loved. I will just have to accept it and move on, because this is life and GOD allows pain to circumcise our hearts.

SOAP

Scriptures

Hebrews 3

English Standard Version

A Rest for the People of God

7 Therefore, as the Holy Spirit says,

“Today, if you hear his voice, 8 do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion,    on the day of testing in the wilderness, 9 where your fathers put me to the test    and saw my works for forty years.10 Therefore I was provoked with that generation, and said, ‘They always go astray in their heart;    they have not known my ways.’ 11 As I swore in my wrath, ‘They shall not enter my rest.’”

12 Take care, brothers, lest there be in any of you an evil, unbelieving heart, leading you to fall away from the living God. 13 But exhort one another every day, as long as it is called “today,” that none of you may be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. 14 For we have come to share in Christ, if indeed we hold our original confidence firm to the end. 15 As it is said, “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion.”

16 For who were those who heard and yet rebelled? Was it not all those who left Egypt led by Moses? 17 And with whom was he provoked for forty years? Was it not with those who sinned, whose bodies fell in the wilderness? 18 And to whom did he swear that they would not enter his rest, but to those who were disobedient? 19 So we see that they were unable to enter because of unbelief.

Hebrews 4

1 Therefore, while the promise of entering his rest still stands, let us fear lest any of you should seem to have failed to reach it. 2 For good news came to us just as to them, but the message they heard did not benefit them, because they were not united by faith with those who listened.[a] 3 For we who have believed enter that rest, as he has said, “As I swore in my wrath, ‘They shall not enter my rest,’” although his works were finished from the foundation of the world. 4 For he has somewhere spoken of the seventh day in this way: “And God rested on the seventh day from all his works.” 5 And again in this passage he said, “They shall not enter my rest.”

6 Since therefore it remains for some to enter it, and those who formerly received the good news failed to enter because of disobedience, 7 again he appoints a certain day, “Today,” saying through David so long afterward, in the words already quoted, “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts.”

8 For if Joshua had given them rest, God[b] would not have spoken of another day later on. 9 So then, there remains a Sabbath rest for the people of God, 10 for whoever has entered God's rest has also rested from his works as God did from his.

11 Let us therefore strive to enter that rest, so that no one may fall by the same sort of disobedience.

Observation

We cannot enter our rest when we refuse to believe GOD and HIS WORD and all HIS promises just as the Israelites, murmured and complained even though they saw the miracle of GOD's deliverance upon them, HIS faithfulness to them for 40 years. I do not want to doubt GOD even though what I see in the physical is completely opposite to GOD's promise to me in the Spiritual. I do not want to doubt GOD but I am in so much when I see that nothing is happening, I am in so much pain because when GOD says something, I believe it completely and wholeheartedly. 

Application

So this GAP of not being able to reconcile what I believe with what I see is painful to me but how do I turn it into hope??? because this GAP is called FAITH. If I have to act like a foolish child, if I have to be a simple man, not reasoning with GOD with anything but just simply believe, then I will survive this pain. I will survive. If I keep my eyes on JESUS, I will survive. If I keep on believing without reasoning, just as Eve spoke to the serpent and believed it's reasoning, I will be able to overcome. I do not even have to think, I just have to trust. TRUST! 

Isaiah 30:15 NKJV 15 For thus says the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel: “In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.”

Prayers

Dear AVI,

GREAT are YOU O GOD, HOLY is YOUR Name, KING of Glory, King JESUS faithful and true! I cry out to YOU, how I ache, how I feel such pain of being rejected, of not seeing what I am believing, such pain. I pray for Kim, I understand that ache, I understand that pain. I pray for Toni, she is also in the fiery heat of trials, I pray for us all to be able to endure the sufferings that YOU allow us to go through, enable us to persevere, enable us to go through this pain without escaping to a short cut because everything is a process. Deal with us according to YOUR loving kindness and mercy O GOD. I pray that YOU will forgive all the pain I have caused YOU and help me to keep focusing on YOU, leaning on YOU, depending on YOU. Grant me YOUR grace O GOD, heal us all O GOD. For YOU deserve all our brokeness, our priase, our worship, our thanksgiving, all the glory in this world is YOURS!

Ba HaShem YESHUA, HaMashiach Amen!