Tuesday 16 July 2024

Event: 

Visit Gaily


Here and Now:
I praise GOD I was able to sleep well and soundly last night after I had a good massage at my brother's house because I went there to visit and I always feel at home with them. Their home is such a blessing and they have become my comfort and place of refuge and rest. Yesterday I was stressed, dismayed, broken down so discouraged by this life I live, so tired and so that massage was so timely. I want to run away and escape from all this pain...


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Scriptures

Philippians 2

English Standard Version

Christ's Example of Humility

1 So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, 2 complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. 3 Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.

Ecclesiastes 9

Enjoy Life with the One You Love

7 Go, eat your bread with joy, and drink your wine with a merry heart, for God has already approved what you do.

8 Let your garments be always white. Let not oil be lacking on your head.

9 Enjoy life with the wife whom you love, all the days of your vain[b] life that he has given you under the sun, because that is your portion in life and in your toil at which you toil under the sun. 10 Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might,[c] for there is no work or thought or knowledge or wisdom in Sheol, to which you are going.

ObservationBecause of my feelings of wanting to run away, GOD is speaking to me in Philippians 2, to love, to be in accord and unity with the ones that hurt me. Stephen and my Mom has hurt me so much, GOD also because HE keeps promising things that never happen. I am already losing my will to keep fighting for the things HE has brought me into. And I just want to run away, but vs 3 is a command from GOD that keeps me grounded, do nothing for yourself, be humble and treat others kindly as they are more important than you. In Ecclesiastes GOD is telling me to enjoy life and love the ones that hurt you, who is not even my husband. It feels like I am dying all over again when HE commands me to do the things that I do not want to do. HIS words is speaking everything against all that my flesh is feeling.

ApplicationMy mind and my heart is dying when I read the words of GOD that opposes what my soul is gearing towards to, I want to run away. I want to quit everything. But I need to forsake my own flesh, my soul just to obey HIS commands. I cannot disobey KING JESUS, I want to abide in HIS love. So no matter how painful I feel right now, even if I have to cry a river, I will follow my KING. I will overcome my flesh... I will endure all the pain, I will follow HIM even to the death because this is my allegiance and commitment to my GOD, who loves me more than anyone ever could. May the LORD grant me grace, healing, restoration, energy to face today's challenge even as I have been so distraught for the past 2 nights that I couldn't sleep. I do not want to make everything an issue, I want to keep following KING JESUS.
 PrayersDear AVI,Great are YOU O GOD, wonderful, faithful and true, HOLY is YOUR Name YESHUA. I come to you today with a broken heart, without confidence, without energy, sick and discouraged. I come to YOU because I know YOU are the ONE who can restore and heal me. YOU are the One who can take care of me. I cannot even bring my tears up to my eyes because I don't know how to deal with my pain. Please let me cry, please heal me O GOD. Please do everything to renew me and make me to be the person YOU created me to be. If I am so judgmental please forgive and make me an understanding person. Please touch Stephen and Mom to not hurt me anymore, to understand me and why I act in a certain way. Please GOD have mercy on me because I cannot deal with this life anymore. Carry me because I cannot even walk. Please JESUS I need YOU to comfort and heal me, restore me today. I need YOU O GOD please take care of me.
In the Name of JESUS Amen

 


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