Sunday 28 July 2024

Event
Evaluation Day

Here and Now:

22:02 

I wasn't able to have devotions this morning because I lacked sleep and so I went to church late and ate lunch with my parents at Lemon Grass and I arrived there they were both fighting but I was able to referee them by understanding what they wanted to tell each other but they couldn't tell each other what they meant because they were both hurt and angry and I realized how much Gestalt has helped me to understand and process my feelings and speak about it truthfully when I applied it to my recent argument with Stephen and then applied what I learned from our argument, to the fight with my parents today.

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Scriptures

Song of Songs 5:2-9

English Standard Version

The Bride Searches for Her Beloved

She

2 I slept, but my heart was awake. A sound! My beloved is knocking. “Open to me, my sister, my love,    my dove, my perfect one,for my head is wet with dew, my locks with the drops of the night.”3 I had put off my garment; how could I put it on? I had bathed my feet; how could I soil them?4 My beloved put his hand to the latch, and my heart was thrilled within me.5 I arose to open to my beloved, and my hands dripped with myrrh, my fingers with liquid myrrh, on the handles of the bolt. 6 I opened to my beloved, but my beloved had turned and gone. My soul failed me when he spoke. I sought him, but found him not; I called him, but he gave no answer.

ObservationThe LOVE of GOD to humans is like the of Man to his beloved. GOD compares loving HIS church like a man loves a woman, that GOD Himself died for her. In this certain passage of scripture, the woman longs for her beloved, she searches for him because he had been knocking on the door of her heart. But as she hesitated, for that split second that she decided to open her heart to him, he was gone... I don't know but in this passage that it feels like he is seeking her heart just to give her false hopes because he didn't stay to wait for her to open up, he left because she couldn't find him at the door anymore.

Application:Is GOD as fickle minded or impatient as Solomon was in his story that he knocked on her heart only to turn away and leave the place where he used to knock on her door? GOD is not human, he is not fickle minded and surely he is not impatient, in fact the WORD says GOD is slow to anger, patient in love waiting for all his people to repent and so GOD is not slow in keeping HIS promises. HE tests us, HE transforms our character by giving us challenges that force us to endure the trials HE sends our way. GOD may be a hopeless romantic lover, helpless for the love of HIS bride but HE certainly is not human, who would easily give up on us, or is impatient with our weaknesses in fact HE is merciful and so gracious to all our mistakes that HE goes all the way, not half way but all the way for the redemption of our souls and for all of us to come back to HIM. Everyday GOD knocks on the door of our hearts, are we heeding HIS call and HIS instructions for us to live the abundant life that HE died for?

PrayersDear AVI,Please help me to wait on YOU with joy and gladness, HELP me to look to YOU, to focus on YOU, to live for YOU and no longer long for the love of an imperfect human husband. YOU make me complete, I am complete in YOU so why should I still long to be loved by a man??? LORD, I give YOU all my desires, please help me to find true shalom in YOU. Help me GOD, I want YOU to do a miracle for me, I want YOU to change my heart so much I shall no longer desire marriage so that when I stop desiring it, then I will have it. I don't know GOD, are my prayers correct? YOU alone know the intents of my heart and can understand the utterance of my heart, something that even words cannot describe or express. Please KING JESUS preserve my husband, the man that YOU chose for me to marry. Let him be filled with YOUR TRUTH, YOUR HOLY SPIRIT and YOUR love and enable him to follow YOU. Encounter him LORD even tonight, and speak to HIS Spirit, who I am and what YOU want him to do with me. I pray that he will have a supernatural relationship with YOU so that when we come together as YOU gather us, we can understand each other's deeply with how we relate to YOU. LORD, I want that miracle, that only YOU can give, please GOD, send me that special man. Use Uncle Jr or whoever to introduce me to him. Make a way to my impossible situation if it is Stephen, make a way O GOD, and help me to keep trusting YOU every moment of my life.
In the Name of JESUS Amen!