Shabbat 20 July 2024

Event:
Leadership Prayers from Pastor Dennis

Here and Now:
I am sorrowful because I am jealous for the one I love who doesn't even love me. When will the LORD ever take away this cup of agony and misery from me??? I did not ask to love someone who will only reject me... I have prayed for a husband who would love me. Why would GOD allow me to love someone who is not my husband? Why would HE not protect me from myself? 

I feel the agony of JESUS in the garden of Gethsemane and so I will ask my brother David and sister Kim what JESUS asked for from HIS disciples: Watchful Prayers. Matthew 26:38 Then he said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death; remain here, and watch[a] with me.” 39 And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.”


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Scriptures

Ecclesiastes 11:9-10

English Standard Version

9 Rejoice, O young man, in your youth, and let your heart cheer you in the days of your youth. Walk in the ways of your heart and the sight of your eyes. But know that for all these things God will bring you into judgment.

10 Remove vexation from your heart, and put away pain[a] from your body, for youth and the dawn of life are vanity.


Psalm 145

14 The Lord upholds all who are falling    and raises up all who are bowed down.

15 The eyes of all look to you,    and you give them their food in due season.

16 You open your hand;    you satisfy the desire of every living thing.

17 The Lord is righteous in all his ways    and kind in all his works.

18 The Lord is near to all who call on him,    to all who call on him in truth.

19 He fulfills the desire of those who fear him;    he also hears their cry and saves them.

20 The Lord preserves all who love him,    but all the wicked he will destroy.

21 My mouth will speak the praise of the Lord,    and let all flesh bless his holy name forever and ever.

Philippians 44 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. 5 Let your reasonableness[c] be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; 6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. 9 What you have learned[d] and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.



ObservationGOD is telling me important things today in relation to Pastor Dennis message last night:1) Remove vexation and pain from your heart but I don't have the power to remove it myself2) The LORD is righteous, kind and near to all those who call on HIM, HE fulfills the desires of those who fear HIM and hears their cries3) Rejoice in the LORD! Be fair and just to all.4) Do not be anxious, do not worry but pray about everything that is making you anxious so that the peace of GOD will reign in your heart.5) Think of everything good do not think anymore about all the negativity or doubts because you have already prayed about it all.

ApplicationI will ask GOD to remove the vexations and pain from my heart because I am not capable of removing it, freeing myself from pain and healing myself. I can only cry to GOD who is merciful and kind and loving to me. HE is trustworthy of even everything painful I am going through today, HE is testing me, HE is dealing with my heart, HE wants to see how far I will endure but it's already been 14 years since HE broke my heart regarding an unfulfilled promise and yet today HE is breaking me every day for every year that I do not see its fulfillment. I believed in GOD always when HE reveals things to me but now because of what HE revealed I am broken into pieces and this is exactly how Joseph felt when HE was in the pit thrown by his brothers, and in the prison brought about by a woman's betrayal. But inspite of all his pain, Joseph trusted GOD and today GOD wants me to trust him like that as well because HE is a righteous GOD, kind and near to all who call on HIM, HE fulfills the desires of all who fear him and HE always hears their cries. I will lift up all my concerns and worries to HIM so that after I cry out to him, HIS peace will reign over me because I have already lifted up the matter to HIM. Therefore I will be able to rejoice in the LORD because HE is good and HE is here for me, HE cares for me and loves me more than I will ever know.

PrayersDear AVI,O GOD Almighty whose LOVE and KINDNESS to me I can never fathom. O GOD of grace and glory, I come to YOU with a broken heart, full of vexations and worries, frustrations and jealousy for Stephen because I did not want him to want another woman but me. And it is not my right to feel jealous because he is not mine, but according to YOUR Promise YOU have chosen him for me but I always have the mistake of owning already what YOU have promised me when it has not yet been fulfilled. And so this agony and jealousy that I feel is all my fault but LORD I cannot help but feel this way and I am agonizing in my heart and Spirit. O GOD of all flesh and ruler of my heart, please remove my vexations and jealousy, deliver me from this agony and misery of love. I pray O GOD, that YOU will help me get over him because it is not yet time to love him. Forgive me for feeling the way I feel, forgive me GOD, please GOD, I am helpless on my own, please remove all the love I have for Stephen so I can finally live my life  with joy and without any desire to be with him because I will have a husband, the one that YOU promised me and it is only HE who deserves my love and attention. So forgive me LORD for failing YOU once again. But LORD everytime I think about this love dying, this human and fleslhy selfish love dying, I remember Mama Ester who died in her love for her husband because YOU wanted her to love him in the Spirit. And so I pray that YOU kill this love O GOD and let me live according to YOUR peace and joy. Please GOD, deliver me, and speak a word of blessing to me regarding YOUR Promise for me to have a husband through Pastor Dennis, speak blessings to me O GOD, let me marry the best man this year! I want the impossible to happen! Please GOD let me meet him and marry him as YOU point him to me let me marry him very quickly because YOU are causing all things to work out for YOUR Glory and our good! It is all for YOUR glory LORD, our stories is all for YOUR glory and honor!
In the name of JESUS I pray Amen!


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