Monday 22 July 2024

Event:
Preparation to leave for Thailand on business Trip


Here and Now:

I slept only 3 hours last night because I am still very spiritually and mentally disturbed about the people we will be working on this Foundation and what GOD is trying to say regarding this new project that Mom wants to start. Dad and I are not really agreeing with her many decisions about it and it is when my mom is not submitted that she makes mistakes. I am tired of trying to protect my family from legal problems but she always ends up getting into these kinds of troubles because she never thinks about it's intricacies. 

SOAP

Scriptures

Song of Songs 1:1-8
New King James Version
Solomon’s Love for a Shulamite Girl
1 The song of songs, which is Solomon’s.
The Banquet
The [a]Shulamite
2 Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth—For [b]your love is better than wine. 3 Because of the fragrance of your good ointments, Your name is ointment poured forth; Therefore the virgins love you. 4 Draw me away!
The Daughters of Jerusalem
We will run after [c]you.
The Shulamite
The king has brought me into his chambers.
The Daughters of Jerusalem
We will be glad and rejoice in [d]you.
We will remember your love more than wine.
The Shulamite
Rightly do they love you.
5 I am dark, but lovely, O daughters of Jerusalem, Like the tents of Kedar, Like the curtains of Solomon. 6 Do not look upon me, because I am dark, Because the sun has [e]tanned me. My mother’s sons were angry with me; They made me the keeper of the vineyards, But my own vineyard I have not kept.
(To Her Beloved)
7 Tell me, O you whom I love, Where you feed your flock, Where you make it rest at noon. For why should I be as one who [f]veils herself By the flocks of your companions?
The Beloved
8 If you do not know, O fairest among women,[g]Follow in the footsteps of the flock, And feed your little goats Beside the shepherds’ tents.

Observation

Song of Songs is one of my most favorite books in the Bible because the topic is all about a man and woman falling in love and their dialogues to one another. Verse 2 says Let him Kiss me with the kisses of his mouth for your love is better than wine. What I have observed is who is this woman talking to??? Is he talking to his friends "Let him kiss me..." because when she says the second line "For your love is better than wine..." she's already talking to the One she loves. The book of Songs is the most intriguing and highly debated book of the bible because some people have its spiritual interpretation of Solomon being CHRIST and the woman as the Bride or Church. 

Application

But I interpret this book in the bible as literal...man and woman falling in love and so I am praying to GOD for this love to find me because love indeed is sweeter and better than any other worldly pleasures or delight. I have been waiting for the love I have been praying for and GOD alone can bring this desire to a reality. I have kept myself for a long time waiting for GOD's promise and reading the book of Solomon only gives me hopes that one day, a man of GOD will love me madly just as Solomon loved his Shulamite, just as CHRIST loved his church.

Prayer
Dear AVI,

HOLY are YOU O LORD MY GOD Almighty! So many things to think about, so many things that worry me and stress me and disturb me. I cannot even think about or attend to my aching heart because of how the one I love hurt me. I want you to keep protecting me and my family from people we are not supposed to work with so I am praying that Sir Eleasar will be able to find out deeper truths regarding Sir Boy and his past life and his daughter too. I don't want us to be involved with the wrong people.... so please deliver us from this upcoming trouble that may come our way as YOU have been disturbing my Spirit since 13th of July. To be honest GOD I am very jealous and insecure over my feelings for Stephen because he is not mine and he never showed he loves me. It is not fair for me to feel this way and I pray that YOU deliver me from such feelings and stupid behavior because I am the one losing out here! Please FATHER, remove anything from me causing me this insecurity and fill me with YOUR Love. YOUR right hand are pleasures forever more. YOUR love is more than enough so please GOD complete me as I have been whole and complete before. Help me KING JESUS to overcome all my stress and worries and fears and insecurities. I pray O GOD deliver me from everything making me feel insecure. Send me the man that YOU have chosen for me O GOD send me that Man that YOU have promised me, because YOU deserve all the glory honor and praise!

In the Name of JESUS Amen!