Friday 26 July 2024

Event
Last day of Conference, suroy day with Shobe

Here and Now:
It's over! I have finally done something to end things with Stephen, told him I was so hurt by him and said some parting words that should close whatever sort of friendship I started with him. I'm done because I'm sick and tired of hoping for nothing. I'm planning to leave my home by August so that I will recover from all my pain.



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Scriptures

Song of Songs 4:1-8

English Standard Version

Solomon Admires His Bride's Beauty

He

1 Behold, you are beautiful, my love,    behold, you are beautiful! Your eyes are doves    behind your veil. Your hair is like a flock of goats    leaping down the slopes of Gilead. 2 Your teeth are like a flock of shorn ewes    that have come up from the washing, all of which bear twins,    and not one among them has lost its young. 3 Your lips are like a scarlet thread,    and your mouth is lovely. Your cheeks are like halves of a pomegranate    behind your veil. 4 Your neck is like the tower of David,    built in rows of stone;[a]on it hang a thousand shields,    all of them shields of warriors. 5 Your two breasts are like two fawns,    twins of a gazelle,    that graze among the lilies. 6 Until the day breathes    and the shadows flee, I will go away to the mountain of myrrh    and the hill of frankincense. 7 You are altogether beautiful, my love;    there is no flaw in you. 8 Come with me from Lebanon, my bride;    come with me from Lebanon. Depart[b] from the peak of Amana,    from the peak of Senir and Hermon, from the dens of lions,    from the mountains of leopards.




Observation
It is every womans dream to be adored and loved by such a good man as Solomon was in love with his bride. How my heart breaks that non of my desires has been fulfilled by GOD and today I am broken hearted and I need to go some place far to heal and recuperate from this broken heart of mine. Even if I imagine my JESUS to be loving me this way, it does not take away the pain of unfulfilled hopes, the hope of being loved and married by the man GOD put in my heart. Just as Sir Boy's disappointment is happening today as we discover the truth that those who have enticed him to build his dreams are not worthy to be entrusted with his dreams.


Application
Today we are in the Hebrew calendar called Tammuz, the month of brokeness, and broken I am right now. Once again I will die to all the desires GOD has promised for me to have without resurrecting hopes that it will ever come alive. I just want to die to every desire that has caused me to be unfaithful to GOD, and I feel all kinds of pain... but just like Abraham I want to say perhaps GOD can raise Isaac back to life. 


Prayers
Dear ABBA,
My FATHER and Husband KING, LORD GOD Almighty, YESHUA ruler of my heart and soul, YOU are worthy of all of me and all of my heart and mind and strength. O GOD my GOD, let me be satisfied with only YOUR love today let me hope in YOU alone. Because YOU are enough Jehovah Jireh... let me bask once again in the purity of YOUR love as YOU have submerged me in the Spirit on 2017. I was loved, I felt loved even though there was no one I could see loving me. I need YOU to love me O GOD, love me today show it physically, because I am insecure and I want to be loved by YOU and the people YOU put around me. Love me through them O GOD, please love me.

In the Name of JESUS Amen 






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